Saying goodbye to an old friend

From the time I was introduced to you around the age of 2, we had been cool. I saw you a lot more during the times when I spent the weekdays with mom and hardly at all when spending weekends with dad. During the elementary school days sometimes mom would take me to see you or bring you by the house. As I got older and into middle school, I’d catch the bus to see you or would even sometimes walk if I had to. There were so many things about you that I enjoyed throughout all of those years. At times, we were inseparable. I’m not the best voice when it comes to singing, but sometimes I’d be inspired to sing when thinking about you and some of your qualities. The majority of my friends really liked you a lot too. But when it came to you, I was greedy and didn’t like to share.

I distinctly remember the day that I got my drivers license at the age of 16. I scooped up Wayne & Khari and before we went to go see I’m Gonna Git You Sucka at the Allen movie theatre, we stopped by to see you. What wasn’t a big deal to some, was a big deal to me cuz it was the first time I was able to drive to see you myself. From that day on, I would come by to see you a lot more often, sometimes bring Ed & Kev along after we ran ball at the park. I’d stop by to see you in the morning, sometimes when I had a break for lunch, and occasionally on the way home for the evening. You always had hook-ups for me even if I wasn’t looking for them. That made it a lot harder to stay away from you.

Another vivid memory is the day Kev’s car broke down on 95 as we were heading to church. We were about a mile away from where you were. We walked through the rain that morning to your spot where we sat for hours snacking on some of our favorites as you took care of the 3 hungry brothas. Roger eventually picked up us and we made it to church in time for the after service potluck dinner, but we couldn’t even eat once we got there.

Lately, things haven’t been well between us. I mean, I can’t really blame you directly cuz I’ve changed a lot. But you’ve changed a lot too. The past 3 years have been really rough. I didn’t totally stop going to see you. Certain things I saw in you, I didn’t see anymore. I’d come by and not even recognize you. At times, you couldn’t give me what I needed and that began to really bother me. Even other folks knew that you weren’t the same. I’d visit when I got the sudden urge, but the same feeling just wasn’t there when I left you. It’s funny cuz my nieces really seem to like you, but they’re kids and I wouldn’t expect anything different. However, the fiancée has expressed to me on a number of occasions that I shouldn’t see you anymore, but she didn’t forbid it. She’s that kind of woman though. She’ll give her opinion and allow me to make the best decision regarding me. Well, I can honestly say that I’ve come to a conclusion. The past year, I’ve seen you maybe 8 times. On probably 7 out of those 8 times, I’ve left you with a sick feeling in my stomach. Unbeknownst to anyone, I came by this morning and saw you. It was early and I didn’t expect too many folks to be out and about, but I was wrong. But I still came to see you. No sooner had I left your company, that a awful feeling came over me. It was then that I decided to leave you alone for good. It’s just not working. I can’t stomach these days anymore where I feel sick after spending time with you. Thus, for the betterment of my overall health, well being and focus in life, I just move forward. You’ve been a good friend for a long time, but it’s time that I bid you adieu.

(a few memories of my friend are below)

 

mickeydeez

applepie

mcd-sundaes

Peace Mickey Deez. You’re just not the same as you used to be. Because of you, Mylanta became a very good friend of mine. I need not gain a longterm relationship with her.

Don’t laugh or be jealous cuz me and Ronald we’re kickin’ it at the White House… lol

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Peace-N-Love…

G. Mo

When you care enough…

…to send the very best. That’s the slogan for Hallmark right there and it’s kind of fitting for this situation. Plus, my man Ace told me that this picture looks like it belongs on a greeting card.

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My baby niece was involved in an accident a few weeks ago. While playing around on the bed she lost her balance and fell head first (more like mouth first) into the window sill. The result of that tumble was a trip to the ER where she was treated for the loss of several teeth and a fractured gumline along the top of her mouth. Now, you know when I got word that Saturday afternoon that she had been injured, my heart kind of just felt knots in it. All three of my nieces are my darlings and I don’t ever want to think about them going through any sort of pain like that. Anyway, I made sure to check up on her on back to back days after the accident to make sure she was okay. The afternoon following the accident, she just slept a good deal. When my sister brought her downstairs, I just cradled her in my arms and sat on the couch as she slept. Next thing I knew, I was waking up myself. When she finally awoke, she wasn’t really herself. For a child who loves taking pictures, it seemed clear that she felt unpretty. I asked her if she wanted to take a picture for the camera and she kindly said “No thank you”. It was so cute the way she said it, but sort of mad me sad too. It was quite obvious that she was in a lot of pain.

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The next day she saw a specialist and they had to pull another tooth that had been pushed back during the accident. As soon as I got off work that afternoon, I rushed to the house. The little girl I saw there was sort of reserved and wasn’t talking at all. She basically would hum answers to everything or just shake her head. I brought some ice cream over hoping that it might inspire her to feel better or maybe even soothe her mouth a little bit. Both Ma and my sis said that she hadn’t said anything since leaving the doctor’s office. But they don’t have that magic that Uncle G has. Wouldn’t you know it, after about 15 minutes of me being there she began talking. It was almost like she had never been silent at all the way she picked back up when you would’ve thought she left off. The vibrant, happy go lucky lil’ girl came to life again. It made me happy to see her smile and just being herself. I guess those Strawberry Shortcake bars really did work magic huh?

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There’s just a certain joy that I get from being there for my lil’ angels. I sometimes have bad days and if I see them I’ll forget about it. On days when I can’t see them, I’ll call. They always find a way to inspire me and help me realize to not sweat the small stuff. Whatever it is or whoever it is that brings you that joy, make sure to find it/them on days when you’re feeling your worst. You’ll be happy that you did.

Peace-N-Love

G. Mo