There’s this piece of yellow cake with chocolate icing that’s sitting on my desk right now. This morning I cut it from a sheet cake that was sitting on my dining room table. I placed it into a plastic container in hopes of eating it for my lunch today. Now here’s the problem. Last night… okay this morning around 1am, I had a slice of cake with a tall glass of milk. In fact since Saturday I’ve been cutting pieces from this large sheet cake and indulging in sugar. Yesterday was the only day this week that I didn’t eat any cake at all. I had a slice on Saturday night. I had a slice on Sunday while watching football. On Monday I took a slice to work and then had some for dinner when I got home. Tuesday was an exact repeat of Monday. After doing that complex math, I’ve indulged in 7 pieces of cake. Now of course that’s all relative to the size of the slices. So being honest with myself, it’s been more like 10 slices of cake in a 5 day span.
What the hell is wrong with me???? I mean, the cake is good and all but it’s like I can’t stop eating it. What’s ever crazier is that chocolate gives me migraine headaches. I’ve know this since I was a teenager. So not only have I been stacking calories, I’ve been torturing myself by inducing headaches. Furthermore, I’ve done no exercise at all this week. I mean nothing! I could’ve gone to the gym, but I didn’t. I had the opportunity to run ball at the rec with the fellas, but I didn’t go. I’m scared to even walk past the scale in my bathroom. I feel like I’ve gained 10 lbs in less than a week. I think I feel better about eating all this sugar because my other meals have been light. I’ve had no red meat at all and mostly chicken and vegetarian meat. I’ve been eating a lot of green vegetables and drinking more and more water and ‘healthy drinks’. Hey, I’m having a Caesar salad for lunch, that’s a good counter balance right? Maybe the Noni juice I drink twice a day will eat the calories away. Wishful thinking huh?
The sad thing is that the sheet cake is still sitting on my table and I have to look at it when I go home this evening. Once again I’ll ask myself if I should just get one more piece. Just one more won’t hurt right? I suppose that ‘one more’ is sitting on my desk right now. No matter how bad I’m feeling about my lack of self control with regards to sugar, I can’t just toss this slice in the trash can. It looks and tastes sooooo good. I promise that I won’t eat anymore cake after this aiiiight? At least not this week….
(pic posted 3 1/2 hours after original blog this morning… I LOST!)